Thursday, February 2, 2012

Groundhog day, etc...

Hi there! The week is finally winding down and for me personally, I am ready for it to be in the past. It's been a little busy and stressful to say the least, but with some rest and relaxation I will be good to go. :)

So the groundhog seeing his shadow is a big disappointment! Any way you slice it though, whether Puxsatawney Phil sees his shadow or not, we will still have 6 more weeks of winter no matter what!! :) It has been a mild winter so far and I hope it continues, but something tells me it won't. :)

Last night I ran in to my neighbor at Krogers and she began telling me a little bit of gossip. Unfortunately, its not the juicy type of gossip that keeps us at the end of our seat. :) It's much more serious! She said the elderly couple who live across the street and who also rely on nursing assistants three times a day to get up and around were scammed out of money by the individuals who they were paying to take care of them! They racked up a credit card bill of $15,000! There were two nursing assistants in on it and they have been indicted and go to court soon! There is an elder law in Ohio that will hopefully cause these girls to get a stiffer sentence.

Monday, January 23, 2012

War Horse and schedule changes

Hi there! My Aunt and I went and saw War Horse today. It was a great movie and I highly recommend it. Bring tissues..you will need them.:) Anywway...

I have had a fear of horses for as long as I can remember! They are so huge and intimidating to me. I have a friend who has four horses and I have gotten somewhat close to them (literally not emotionally) and have made some progress as far as my fear. I guess they are just like extra extra extra large dogs... :) I like horses don't get me wrong, I just need to work on trusting them and not be intimidated by their size! :)

I learned the other day that one of my nursing assistants wants one of her days off. She wants to go back to school to get her LPN license. This means its time for me to add another nursing assistant to my case. I don't like training new people and it always brings me great anxiety having someone new, having to talk them through every step of my routine, relying on them to be here and on time, blah blah blah! :) It wears me out! But, I do know I need to add someone else, I have for a long time. So, this has given me the push I need to get that in the works. Wish me luck! :)

Sunday, January 22, 2012

HP part 2, etc.

In my previous post I mentioned relying on my happy place too much and how it wasn't healthy for me. I have come to realize I need to work hard and change the things that cause me grief and unhappiness! When I feel unhappy with myself and the way my life is headed, I find myself getting intolerant and short off with the people around me. I don't want to be that person people have to tip toe around or dread coming in contact with because I might blow my top. LOL..I don't think I'm that bad, but some days I feel like I could be! :)
If I sound like I'm unhappy and miserable, I'm actually not. There are just a handful of things in my life that have room for improvement. :)

Tomorrow my aunt and I are meeting up to watch a movie. We have agrred on War Horse! I'm sure this is a movie that will require a box of tissues! I will report back to let you know what I think! :)

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Happy place

We all have bad days and we all deal with our bad days differently. Myself, when I'm having a bad day I  tackle it by mentally removing whatever it is causing me grief and replacing it with my "happy place." A happy place can be the ocean, it could be the mall, it could be your furry companion, it could be your significant other, it could be someone special, it can be whatever or whoever you want... it's YOUR happy place. :)

I have resorted to my "happy place" many many many times and it always makes me smile. It's not always when I'm having a bad day of course, but when I am, my "happy place" has been my god send. It's like a yummy gooey chocolate  chip cookie w/out the calories!! :)

On the downside I would probably be distraught if something happened to my HP!! Am I relying on HP too much?? Probably!

More to come...

Friday, January 13, 2012

T.G.I.F the 13th! :)

Hello and Happy Friday, the 13th! :) Here in Ohio it's really cold, windy and we have a tiny layer of the fluffy white stuff covering the ground. Even though its not much, it's enough to keep me inside and away from the elements. :) I say that as if there are people lined up at my door ready to take me out clubbin' but because of the blistering cold, they won't be blessed with my presence, unfortunately. Ha!

On that note, I might go out tomorrow night! It's really up in the air, though. Steve has a gig with Skeleton Crew in Dayton and I don't know if it's even wheelchair accessible. As much as I enjoy listening to live music and being with people, it's always a late night waiting around while the band tears down the equipment and loads it up. I like to be tucked away and in siesta mode by midnight. :) My nursing assistant is working late tomorrow so maybe her and I will go listen to the band, maybe we will go do our own thing or maybe I will stay home? Hmmmm...decisions decisions

Friday, January 6, 2012

Happy Friday

Hello! Happy Friday! I will be glad when today/tonight is over and the weekend will officially be here. :)

This afternoon I had a doctor's appointment and well, those doctor's appointments can take up a large chunk of the day! Today was interesting, to say the least. The waiting room was pretty crowded, but I managed to find a little hole to park myself in where I wouldn't be in anybody's way or blocking a path to and from the door.

Soon after I found that comfy spot, the room began filling up and my little hole began to shrink. Pft! I couldn't wait to get out of there! I was hungry and McDonald's was calling my name. As I sat there uncomfortably, a young girl approached me. I guess her to be around 10 or 11. She waved and said hi. I smiled and said hi back. She then pointed at the square box on my chair, the one that "houses" the power buttons, it shows which gear I'm in, shows how much battery charge is left, etc. Well, I gave her a short simple version and she told me how cool it is. :) She then pointed to my chin control and asked what it was. Again I gave her the simple version and hoped her interview was wrapping up. :) No, unfortunately it wasn't. She then wanted to know if Steve was my son. I smiled (not amused though) and said No, he isn't. Steve loved this and I am pretty sure that comment will have him fueled up for a very long time.

The girl was sweet and really didn't bother me, but the questions in a crowded room was a little awkward, even though they were rather innocent.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Happy New Year and RIP Mama!

Hello and Happy New Year! :) I hope you had a nice New Years Eve! My evening was spent at home enjoying the company of Steve, my aunt, Dave (bass player for Terrapin Moon) and of course my furkids Buddy and Lady. :) My aunt and I spent most of the evening cooking, eating, watching youtube videos, drinking beer and talking. :) I'm not really in to making resolutions, but if I were I would probably say my resolutions would be to...
  1. Get a job.
  2. Get organized
  3. Eat more healthy
  4. Stop dropping F bombs
Today I'm feeling discouraged and sad! :( When I feel this way I don't have the desire to be motivated, or pick myself up, or to eat carrot sticks or say phooey! Maybe tomorrow will be a better day? I hope so!! We will see...

My Mama has been gone 12 years today! I miss you and love you! I know we had our moments, but I hope you somehow someway know how much I miss you and think of you!

Friday, December 30, 2011

Forgiveness

Hello! Today I was watching The Early Show and caught an inspiring segment about Forgiveness. The segment was about a lady who lost her only 23 year old son in 1993. He was fatally shot by a 16 year old boy at a party, which they both were attending.

The 16 year old was charged (rightfully so) with murder and was sentenced to 25 years. He served 17 1/2. A few years before he was released the mother who lost her son wanted to meet the man who took her son's life. She wanted to forgive him to have peace within herself. They met, continued to meet and are in each others lives every day. They are neighbors!!! She spoke with her landlord and convinced him/her to give this man a chance and he/she did. He is now employed, attending church and teaching others about forgiveness. :) Beautiful story, huh?

Another story I heard about on The Early Show was a story about an 18 year old named Ben Breedlove who lost his life Christmas morning. He had a heart attack. Here is the link to the 7 minute video he posted December 18th AND the article that tells his story. Ben Breedlove had a heart condition and has cheated death four times. He began to grow tired of the disease, the hospital visits, the near death experiences and wanted to be at peace. He talks about it here on this link. Ben Breedlove Notice the times on the video when he smiles and when he doesn't.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Merry Christmas Eve

Hello! I hope you have a Merry Christmas tomorrow!! :) I will be spending the afternoon with my sister, brother and their families which I'm looking forward to doing. My sister and I hit a rough patch recently (I blogged about it) so I hope what happened a couple weeks ago doesn't interfere with our family time tomorrow. I often use this blog to vent about my frustrations because well it's therapeutic for me and we all need an outlet. Right?

Uh Oh I feel a rant coming on. Tonight Steve's band (Terrapin Moon) has a gig and I have to be honest and say I am not looking forward to it!! We have been snapping at each other all day and coupled with the Giants winning today and the Eagles not being in the playoffs now....its been a bad day and the night will only get worrse I'm sure! I hate, absolutely hate asking him to do anything for me when he is in a bad mood!! Fu#k me!! He leaves for Delaware tomorrow....much needed break? Absolutely!!

I visited with my niece Tia Thursday night. She is home from Texas until January 1st. I missed her so much!! She looks so pretty and grown up...Her boyfriend Shawn is also home from the service so they will be joined at the hip I'm sure. :)

Monday my aunt and I will be meeting at the cinema and having a movie marathon. Not really a marathon, just two movies. :) We are first watching War Horse and then The Girl with the Dragon tattoo. Her and I always enjoy going to the movies and then critiquing them afterwards. :)

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Tuesday

Hello! I Hope this blog finds you happy and well! I am!!! :)  I began taking Chlorophyll pills about a week ago. I heard they are good for your bladder and are a good way to detoxify your body. Some testimonials I read were people feel 100% better and have more energy. I also read that one may experience flu like symptoms for a couple days while the Chlorophyll is getting in your system. I haven't noticed changes yet, but we shall see. I have many urinary tract infections and really want to find a way to cut the number down so I'm not relying on antibiotics so often. I also got some d-mannose which takes something out of the urine. I should know what it does before I start blogging about it, huh? :) Ha! I haven't taken the d-mannose yet. I will wait and see what the chlorophyll does.

Somebody broke out the back window of my neighbor's truck the other night! There was nothing stolen, but the fact it even happened is horrendous!! We live in a safe neighborhood and have rarely had any trouble, but this incident makes me realize these things can happen everywhere and I need not be naive to this!

Christmas is right around the corner. My bf is going out of town for a few nights and I'm not 100% certain what I'm doing yet. I have been invited to a couple places, so decisions decisions! :) No matter what I decide, I'm certain it will be a GREAT day!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Family

Hello! Today is Sunday already and tomorrow Steve's Mom and Dad are leaving in the morning. Their time here always goes by so fast, it's hard to believe five days have past so quickly. They helped so much with Christmas decorations inside and outside which is always much appreciated! :) Last night around midnight we all gathered in the living room and celebrated our Christmas together being it was going to be a busy day today getting ready for their trip back home.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow, the start of a fun and possibly busy week! :) I will be visiting with my friend, which I always look forward to doing. :) I also have grocery shopping to do and a couple errands to run. Fun times! :)

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Belly buttons and jury duty

Hello! Hope you are having a great weekend! :)

Anybody who knows me probably knows I have a phobia of belly buttons. Not in general, but in the sense I hate my belly button being touched. It's ultra sensitive and when its touched it sends me through the roof. It started after my accident and I have no idea why it makes me crazy! Anyway... today I was in bed and in the midst of me getting dressed, my aunt called. At this point I was partially dressed with a towel draped over me. While I talked on the phone my stna applied my lotion to save some time since we were in limbo. Well, Lady loves the taste of lotion. I usually always let her lick my arm or leg for awhile after I get lotion applied because well, I strive to make my baby girl happy.  :) Today, though she had a different agenda. She wasn't interested in my arm or leg....she went straight for the lotion on my belly button! Oh muh God... I was going through a plethora of emotions.. Panic, denial, anger...you name it. I didn't want to yell at her, but I was about to become unglued. She eventually stopped when her attention got diverted, but 11 hours later I'm still experiencing belly button discomfort! What the H? Anyway...

One day this week I was opening my mail and noticed an envelope from the County Sheriff Department. Hmmm why am I getting mail from them, I thought to myself. Well, it was a letter inviting me to jury duty in March. Hmmmm says me! I have always thought jury duty could be a cool thing to experience, but now I'm thinking not so much. I like court shows and trials on tv, but only if they are real. I'm all about Forensic Files, Snapped and especially Trutv, it's my weakness. I don't think though that I will be lucky enough to be chosen to sit in and deliberate on an elaborate case like the kind I see on tv. It will be something minor like traffic offenses or the like. BORING! :)

Chances are great that I will not be chosen to participate. My dad had to go and report for jury duty in the 90's and got sent away because they asked him if he had ever lost or had a faily member or loved one seriously injured in a vehicle accident. Since he had, well they probably figured he might harbor bad feelings towards the driver and this could cause him to be bias. (correct word?) Anyway...we shall see! :)

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Hump day!

Today I spent some time with my friend Teri, who was my nurse when I first moved here. She only worked for me as a nurse for a short time because of a career change, but we have remained friends ever since! We went to Bath and Body works, Petsmart and then went to Frisch's where we sat for what seemed like hours catching up. We talked, we laughed, talked more, cried, talked more... :)

I have been thinking a lot about my sister and the whole facebook comment. I was wrong by outing her in the manner I did and feel like a true tookas!! I have built up anger and probably chose the wrong avenue to vent. She has always justified not visiting me by saying she knew dad was with me and I wasn't alone. Regardless of what happened in the past or what didn't happen I need to let it go and focus on the here and now!

Steve's parents arrived today and will be here until early Monday. I'm unsure what we have planned, but I'm sure they will help with getting Christmas decorations up inside and outside. They always keep busy and are non-stop. :) Unfortunately this trait doesn't run in the family.... :)

Have a great evening!!

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Mice, the finale, besties and family night!

I know my previous post was really bitchy! The noisy mouse was just getting on my last nerve and I wanted him dead. The next morning Heather and I emptied the contents of the basket and to my surprise all the little guy wanted was a strawberry twizzler. What mouse wouldn't want a strawberry twizzler, right? He also chewed on an unpopped microwave popcorn bag, but didn't get it open all the way. Anyway...he is still alive and will probably make himself heard tonight. Unfortunately for him, things are in tupperware now and not easy to chew! Sorry Mr. Mouse!

Tomorrow Steve is going to Miami for the weekend and I have plans with friends. :) I love the time I spend with friends! I don't have a big circle of friends, but the couple I do have are the best and I'm beyond blessed to have them in my life! Thank you besties!!!! :)

Tonight my brother, his wife, their boys and their nieces are coming over and we are making pizzas. :) I'm excited to see the family. My nephew's birthday was November 18th and I have a present to give him. I'm totally embarrassed to admit that I totally forgot his birthday! November 18th came and went and I didn't give his birthday a thought until my brother talked about it last week! I apologized and made him swear not to tell his wife that I forgot their son's birthday! She would be totally apalled! (sp?) My dad's birthday is November 18th and his the only birthday I seem to associate that day with for some reason.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Mouse part 2

The part I said in my previous post about not wanting to kill the mouse who is eating my bread and shitting on my counter...I take it back!!! He is back AGAIN and bold as hell!! He is making so much noise as he peruses through my wicker basket filled with tasty cakes, tootsie rolls and kit kat bars that it's annoying the hell out of me! Every time I roll in the kitchen to get a glimse, he gets quiet and runs off. I roll back in to the family room, get on my computer and BAM he is back in the basket helping himself. I want a cat!! To be continued!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Mice

Unfortunately when the cold weather comes, so do the furry little field mice who are trying to find some heat and get their bellies full. Over the past several weeks I've heard a scratching type noise near the kitchen cabinets and I know its mice, but I have no idea how many! Today it was pretty incessive so I rolled over to the refridgerator area where I thought I heard the chewing noise, but couldn't see anything. The closer I got the louder he was so I tried to be hush hush. I tried to whisper really loud for Steve, who was down the hall,  but the mice must have heard me. It was then that I heard a loud rustle and then the chewing stopped. A few moments later after Steve came in I saw a gray blurr go under the dishwasher! My heart stopped and it was then that I rolled out of the kitchen about as fast as the mouse went under the dishwasher!

I hate having mice! I hate finding gnaw marks in the bread bag! I hate seeing their little dookie droppings! I can't get myself to set mouse traps though. I don't want them, but I don't want to kill them, either. We have live traps we can use, its just figuring them out. :)

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Twilight

Hello! Hope you're having a good week! :)

We got some snow here in Ohio yesterday and well, boo!!! Can you tell I'm not a fan? :) I'm quite the sun worshiper and have never much cared for the fluffy white stuff even as a child growing up. Don't get me wrong, I played in the snow, built snowmen and made snow angels, but I always preferred the warmer weather over the blistering cold winter months. Now, because I'm a quadriplegic and my internal thermometer is out of whack causing me to be cold most of the time, this couples my dislike for Ohio weather in the winter months. Aren't I just a peach this evening?? :)

 Well, I can finally say that I have watched all 3 twilights and am ready to go see Breaking Dawn! I had a hard time grasping the whole vampire and werewolves concept, but with the help of my nurse, I think I got it now. :) Also, I'm team Edward! :) I watched a funny movie today which was a spoof of the first twilight. I think it was called Vampires suck. If you get an opportunity to see it, its funny! :)

Friday, November 25, 2011

Black Friday

Today is Black Friday and I was a stick in the mud and stayed home! I don't go out and shop for huge deals on black Friday because I don't know if I believe the huge deals are really out there! I hear on the tv commercials that they are. I see in the newspaper ads that they are... but, are they really??? I went one time (two years ago) and bought a pair of panties for .99 and a Nike sweatshirt for $19.99. That wasn't worth a night of no sleep, freezing my tookus off and the gas it took to get me there. Sigh!

We went to see Steve's dad yesterday and really enjoyed our visit! We drove to PA in about 4 hours, visited for the entire day and got home around midnight. The part of Pennsylvania we were in is full of hills and curves. It makes me think that people in Pennsylvania have to change there car brakes more often than those not in Pennsylvania. No?? Anyway...great trip! :)

Tomorrow I'm going to the Hara Arena National Holiday and Gift Show with my aunt and my friend, Barb. I hope to get some Christmas shopping done and enjoy my time out at the same time. :)

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving

Well, tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I want to start off by telling you the things and people that I'm grateful to have in my life. My boyfriend, my dogs, JAS (you know who you are...ha!) my nurse and nursing assistants, my bf's family who have always accepted me and of course my family! I am thankful for the roof over my head and especially thankful for my wheelchair, which is like my legs because it gets me around! :) Also, my standing frame which I enjoy more than anything!

We are heading to Pennsylvania tomorrow to spend the day with Steve's dad, who recently bought a new house in E. McKeesport. My nurse assistant and I worked in the kitchen today cooking a 4 lb. turkey breast, making stuffing (pouring it from the box to the sauce pan while adding water) and baking croissants to tote with us tomorrow for our Thanksgiving day dinner!

Have a great day and Happy Thanksgiving!

Monday, November 21, 2011

B-Dubs

Hello! Hope everybody had a great weekend! :) I had a good weekend. Friday & Saturday was pretty uneventful for the biggest part, but Sunday afternoon was spent at the skating rink in Kettering and at Jimmie's Ladder 11 lounge in Dayton later in the evening. We went to the skating rink that afternoon to watch my nurses daughter skate while my nurse and Steve worked on nursing notes: That evening Steve had an acoustic gig with his band member David, which sounded great. It was a good day!

Today I spent my manic Monday at Krogers doing my weekly grocery shopping and later that evening I met a friend at BW3's for a couple beers and appetizers. :) I really like Bdubs boneless wings smothered with their mild sauce. :)